#5SecondRule

Being an entrepreneur or following your creative dreams is not for the light hearted. In fact, it is a journey that can take you to places you would rather not go. It ranges from depression, joy, hopelessness, inspired, fear, hopefulness, despair, humor, anger, pride, anxiety, etc...you get the bird's eye view. For me, following my bliss has taught me many things. But I’d have to say the biggest struggle is knowing when to walk away and knowing when to persist. I’m still trying to get that figured out. 

There is a movie on Netflix called One Chance and stars James Corden. It is the true story about a boy named Paul Potts who grows up wanting to be an opera singer. Paul went through many ups and downs before he finally reached his goals. There is one part in the movie that I related to. It was when he got his voice back and he is thrilled yelling “I can sing again” and he immediately gets hit by a car and winds up back in the hospital. LoL  Not funny, I know. But it is that moment when you really start to believe that life is trying to tell you to put your dream back in your pocket and give up. Only to find that your heart is now broken because your heart knows that your desire is truly the right path. Just the timing and maybe the avenue is a little off course. 

When I am in a down time, I have learned a little trick called the 5 second rule by Mel Robbins. In the morning when I struggle to get up...I do the #5secondrule. 5,4,3,2,1, jump up. I’ll deal with the rest of me once my ass is out of bed. I find this little game a gem to maneuver around my mind’s limitations. For example, it's ok to have a little cry in the afternoon, but then I tell myself after the count down, the tears get wiped and I must get back to work. For those who struggle like I do, I hope you will check out Mel Robbins and find some inspiration from her videos to keep yourself on track and moving forward. For those of us who do not have a real live person in our corner to lean on, these kinds of little tips really are tools for the trade. 

#dreams  #entrepreneur #inspiration  #OneChance  #courage

Mending

I hope everyone’s January is off to a decent start. When the first of the year rolls in, I actually slow right down. I don’t see the sense in rushing. There always seems to be a lull in the energy for the first two weeks of January and this year seemed no different. Astrology wise speaking, the energy flow doesn’t really pick up until the third week of the month anyways. And honestly that works fine by me. I love this quiet time after the bustling holidays are over when the kids go back to school and the frozen weather makes us adults want to hibernate.  I take this time to contemplate life at a deeper level. To review the last year and what changes I would make. And then I think about what direction I would like to move towards. This Capricorn influence is great for being strategic and focused. And I would like to think that I have used this time wisely with great strides forward. 

One of the powerful thoughts that I have been churning over and over for the past few months, “let go of what no longer works for you”, has had me stumped. It isn’t like I had no idea of what wasn’t working for me, it just seemed like there was too much that wasn’t working for me. Lol  And I didn’t know how to narrow it down. 

It wasn’t until very recently that I fully understood what it was that I needed to let go of. It wasn’t something from the outside world. It was something rooted in the world within me. It is incredibly simple and yet an exhausting task to fully complete. My discovery led me to this mantra. “My suffering no longer serves me.”  Seems simple right? Yeah well to put it into material form it is like a file system with thousands of stories within it. But our inner intuition and spirit is quite incredible. For this past year I have been slowly but surely deleting the emotional connections to each story. And it wasn’t until recently that I saw the big picture in this. 

This morning as I sat in contemplation of this thought, “my suffering no longer serves me”, I pulled a card from the Wisdom of the Oracle deck. It was card 52...MENDING...Forgiveness, Healing, Making Amends. It says, “Each time we are hurt and allow the hurt to pass through us without understanding and integration, we accumulate an unwanted burden. This keeps us chained to the very things we need to heal: the pain, the memories, the echos of resentment, and the arguments that we rehearse over and over. Now is the time for mending rifts, healing wounds, and letting go of the old hurts in order to claim your power. Set yourself free. 

How beautiful is that. Of course this doesn’t mean to go up to all the people of your past, but rather to let go of it within you. And it isn’t always about the people. It can be circumstances such as the environment from which you were raised, or perhaps a physical disorder or dysfunction. Personal suffering has many labels. And it really feels good to peel those labels off. 

From Wisdom of the Oracle deck by Colette Baron-Reid

Letting Go to become Successful

I was just going through my emails and came across this  great video from Jack Canfield who is one of the mentors I am following. It fits completely with the post I put up this morning: The Last Full Moon of 2016.  Enjoy Jack's wisdom!

Moments In Time

This poem is from my first poetry & prose book Moments in Time.

Inspiration is Everywhere

Hope you are all having a wonderful summer. I am really enjoying my new neighborhood with all the beautiful old trees and a forest near by. The woods is one of my comfort zones where I feel able to easily connect to the oneness of it all. But as I walked down the street today, I came to a place on the road where I looked up and felt like I had been transported to a magical Tolkien reality. Inspiration truly is everywhere!

Changing the Story

I like people. But I am not always comfortable around people, especially groups of people. Sometimes to the point where I would feel anxiety to be around small groups of people I didn’t know. It took me many years to understand why, and then I discovered a story that was inside of me. The story went like this….

When I was a little girl around the age of three years old, I discovered the little girl across the street from me was having a birthday party. As I stood at the fence gate she invited me to come join her party. Thrilled I eagerly agreed, after all, a birthday party meant birthday cake. For the next half an hour or so, I played in the backyard with the other kids. Then the father of the little girl came out of the side door and stood on the steps. The little girl announced it was cake time and told me she would go ask if I could come in. As the little birthday girl talked to her father, he pointed to me. She looked upset. When she returned she told me I was not allowed to come in. I reminded her I liked birthday cake. She went to ask again. Her father looked angry. She returned and told me I had to leave. I remember feeling quite disappointed and left out. Slowly I walked to the gate. As I did the children began chanting “Go Home, go home.” This made me cry. As I walked through the gate, I reminded them how much I loved birthday cake. They chanted louder and began picking up stones and throwing them at me. They chased me off of the yard. My brother who was two and a half years older than I was sitting on the crescent curb. I ran over to him. Seeing my distress, he picked up stones and through them back at the group of kids. They ran back to the little girls house.

Many years later I asked my mother about these people who lived across the street. She was shocked I could remember any of it. I reminder her that childhood recall was a talent of mine. She remembered the father and how he was a strict man and that he did not get along well with my father. Main message here; don’t take it personally. But that still did not heal what had happened with the group of children. I decided to meditate on the memory and apply an open mind. As I reviewed the story unfolding before my closed eyes, I saw a perspective that had not presented itself earlier. I saw the little girl talking to her father. She was insisting that I was allowed to stay for cake. Then the part where she began to come over to tell me to leave was coming up. I stopped the story right there. I paused it. Freezed it. And examined it. And what I saw changed the story. This little girl liked me so much that she stood up to her dominant father insisting that I be allowed to come in for birthday cake. She liked me. The group did accept me.  Within this realization, something shifted in me, and I began to feel a subtle healing take place. And I also understood in that moment how important it is to go into the shadow memories and shine some light because there is a chance that there is way more to the story than the pieces we hold on to.  

I still have a lot of work to do with expanding my comfort zones, after all, a life time is more that one or two stories. But when we edit one story at a time, the book just might turn out to become more of a comedy rather than an escalated drama.  The choice really is ours to make. You are the editor of your life.